cosmic traveller

As a cosmic being belonging to the science research of Xyrqoush I use to travel from galaxy to galaxy

to explore and discover new planets and worlds.

I love to see the variety of the cosmic zoo and to meet all different kind of species - well, allmost;-)

I belong to a kind of beings with a humanoid appearance but yet different to yours;-)

Our skincolour is violet due to the spectrum of our sunlight and some biological characteristics.
And we are a lot taller and living much longer than you are in your world.

Throughout the aeons of time we learned shape-shifting - a very  useful ability to visit and study other planets, because it is also a part of my job as an astro-holistic-biologist to observe other forms of  life, 

to learn from them or teach them a bit of my world and the way we live on Antiaray, my homeplanet.

Antiaray belongs to the starsystem Xyrqouh from the spiral galaxy Omkxh -

probably unknown in your world - the Second Earth;-)
(We watch you with the most modern technics as you can see  - ROFL; no, of course we have other possibilities to do that)
But sure - we also use reincarnation to be born into a world we want to learn about or teach. So we can feel and experience the life on other systems in a very direct way. If you ask me: this way is not my favourite  one because in most cases we forget everything about us - who we are, where we come from and all we have learned before. Many of us feel lost, alone and absolutely alienated.

One of my favourite stops during my expeditions is Bladerunner City

and the Offworld Colonies. 

I don't know - but there is a certain atmosphere.
I go there as often as my time allows. 

But the most important thing: there I met HIM, my star chaser Lhiram.
 I remember the day as if it were yesterday:

I was waiting for the shuttle taking me back to my starship far beyond the outer belts of BRC.
A heavy ionic storm had come up and made it impossible to take off and so I had to kill my time.

 

After a snack and looking at some stupid fashion-magazines about the latest clothes we should wear at the 'Out of Space Parties' I decided to have a beer at the 'Marsbar' .

While I was sitting there, thinking about my next destination on a far away planet and what would wait there for me, I saw HIM - appearing in the corner of my eye.
WOW ..... was the only thought I was able think and hoped that he noticed me. But no!
It seemed I was invisible for him even as I started to cough very loud...more then necessary I guess. He went on staring at his glass of beer.

Ok - 'this situation calls for a more offensive action' I thought and went to him.

"Hi" I said "you are waiting here?"
What a very 'clever' question....

"As you can see..." was his answer  looking at me as if  I were nuts and turned to his beer again.

"I am Marlia - well in your language." I started a new try.

"And?" he asked back.
In this moment I was called to my shuttle; I murmered  a short goodbye and went as fast as I could to the shuttle place.

"Idiot! Hope you rott in the next giant wormhole." I thought.



The next weeks I spent on a very boring and underdeveloped planet and I did not think of him at all.
What happened at my next stop at BRC?
Well, be patient...........will be continued;-) Maybe.....

Lhiram: my model Liam - my male avi:-)

Virtual Love

 When I started to be in Second Life I thought it was similar to all the mmorpgs I played like 

'The Dark Age of Camelot', 'Tabula Rasa', 'Aion' and...(nonono NOT WoW!!!  lol)

But: where was my sword, where were the elves, goblins, dwarfs and orks? 

No fightings, no levels to reach......

Ok, no! I knew that SL was a giant chat-platform with nice pictures, 

the chance to build all kind of stuff and  sell and buy it 

(even sexual organs...rofl) 

And there are lots of opportunities to do many nice and also awful things there. 

But falling in love in a virtual world?

No, that could not be possible - no way, never, no chance!

I thought all the people telling about that, having dramas 

because they felt betrayed or whatever must be nuts 

and belong to a psychologist, getting the white jackets on.....rofl.

And meet someone from that virtual insanity in real life...OMG....

how could they dare that???? Really, I did not understand that.

Ok - you surely guessed it already - then I met HIM, Mr. B. and everything changed. The most impossible case  happened - I fell in love with an avatar, LOL. No, not with the avatar of course but with the man behind the monitor even if I had not seen him (ok a picture after a while) and never met in real life.

It is hard to explain what kind of mechanism it is but I know that those feelings are very real. They do not differ from the feelings we have when we fell in love in RL. There must be something that goes 'beyond the monitor' - a kind of energy ( there is more on earth than the material things we see, blabla...;-) seriuosly, I believe that).

It is not the appearance of the avatar - well...not for me, there is much more. I do not care very much about the looks of the male avas...although there are surely things I do not like.

 As I said - I cannot explain what happens there. Maybe it is the combination of chatting and how the person acts there (in the chat), common interests, same kind of humor, short to be  on the same wavelength and the nice pictures we see, when we are dancing and so on..............I don't want to tell more here, haha. No, no I do not mean pixelsex,  of course not - I am a good girl, lmao. 

But after a while it is really hard to have this kind of virtual relation because the wish to talk and to touch him/her in reality is getting bigger and I hardly could stand that it was not possible. So for me and I guess for a lot of people in SL it is very difficult to be in love in SL without having the chance to meet the one. I  know now, I cannot seperate both worlds.

But meeting the person in RL is surely difficult too. We have a lot of illusions I guess.

Sure we all know that nobody looks like the avis but the difference between reality and the virtual world can be very big. And we do not know how the person acts, speaks, laughs and and.....Ok these all belongs to the outer appearance and what should really count if the love is true are the inner values ("wise sayings no.1" or maybe a too often used phrase;-) )

If that works in reality...we can't know if we do not try.

The great chance we can have in SL is to get to know a person without judging him/her by the look, religion, race, age.....but only if we are honest and not telling lies - and I am not only talking about love-relations, also about friendships.

For me it did not work and the relation ended in a very bad and nasty way full of lies and it really hurted me.

If it can happen again - fall in love there? I do not know, but I am surely more careful,
because this experience made it very hard for me to trust somebody there. Words are written so easily but at the end we do not know if it is the truth........maybe they are only said to reach a certain goal, whatever that might be.
The best would be to avoid falling in love in virtual worlds and simply have fun but how can we defeat feelings? I guess that is not possible.

So - here it comes - "wise sayings no.2":   Que sera sera....whatever will be will be.....LOL

First pic: from the game Aion.
Male in the other pics: Liam...my avatar too;-)

Fairies

I want to show some fairy-pictures I took at Fruit-Island and somewhere else:

Both of them are edited in Photoshop with a special tool named Fractalius. 

I used the demo-version but I like it so very much., that I will buy it:-)

I did some other things here too to get these effects - a filter.

This one is 'only' edited a bit with a brush, blur and I added the little fairy there.

I really like to do such things and I love these colours:-)

But I also like to edit it like I did in the follwing pics:

This is a combination between RL and SL.

or like here - a combination between Nasa-Images (or Hubble?) and a SL-photo.

Or simply a picture I took at Lemondrops - I thought it was funny;-)

I have a lot more fairy-pics....I guess I like fairies, lol.

Space-Party

A while ago there was a special party at Undertaker's Bar.

A space-party!

At this occasion the owners Laughton, Jonja and Sandy showed some of my pictures:-)

Nearly everyone had a special costume and it was a lot of fun:-)

Jonja dancing the 'space-dance' ;-)

Would anybody recognize Laughton?:-)

It's me with the green hair;-)

Some more of special occasions will follow:-)

Crossing the worlds

Everybody in SL surely has seen this SL is SL and RL is RL declaration in profiles:-)

I have no clue how this is meant despite from not meeting the people in real life.

In most cases when we get to know people in virtual worlds
and meet and chat with them for a longer time 

it is hard to believe for me that they only talk about these unreal spaces.

It gets boring after a while only to chat about SL or similar worlds.
Sure we do not have to tell our names or our whole life story but

 as soon as we start to talk about real life the mixture begins in my eyes.

And from my experiences even people with the wish not to mix both worlds do that:

they talk about real life.

So what about the seperation then? What do they want except from no rl-meetings?

It gets worse when people who strictly want to seperate both worlds
 start to tell us about their love and that their feelings are in real life.
Is that a seperation? Sure it is not.

So why are they telling such things when they want to seperate both worlds?
Is it a lie? Only a game? Do they believe what they tell us?
 I understand that it happens to fell in love in SL without planning it:-)
But I have no understanding for people who are obviously looking for that by purpose
because they want to live/play these secret love-relations as a game or whatever and repeat that -
how many times ever.

They hide their second life from their RL - better: their second life love affairs -
probably because they are married and betray their real life partners and to put it to extremes:

there are people who hide their hidden second life with another hidden (in RL and SL, lol) second life
if the 'old' partner gets to difficult or takes her/his love seriously.
What is that - a game?? Aren't they aware that they might hurt other people?
They talk about love and tell you all kind of things that make you believe they tell you the truth
and then they are astonished when you take that for serious.
Probably they are telling the same things now to their new 'loves'.
Instead of  taking responsibility for what they are doing in SL they prefer to leave you behind
and start the same thing again?
Very strange in my eyes.

And why creating new avatars?

Are they afraid the old 'love' will tell the new 'love' some delicate things??

Or what do they want to hide??? Don't they want to be caught in a lie? 

Are they afraid the 'old love' will haunt them or whatever?

I don't get that:-) Maybe they take themselves much to serious.

They should be honest to people and themselves and not hide behind pixels!
Sure: everybody should be free to do whatever she/he wants to do in SL -
but not when other people get hurt!!!

It would be better to tell from the beginning that they only want to play a strange kind of game.
It is not enough to claim they don't want to mix both worlds
when they don't do it by themselves what they expect from us - seperate!!
They should NOT cross the worlds pretending they have feelings for you in real life
if they only want to play or escape from real life!

One more thought:
this all is surely not meant for all those people who are honest.
And not for all people who accidently fell in love in virtual worlds although they are married -
I know we cannot plan that and we cannot avoid it every time.
But maybe we can learn from that and see that it will not happen again so that we do not hurt people.

Zufall - two times 'Lucid Dream(s)...'

Most people would call it 'Zufall' - coincidence - that Ambrosia the owner of Dreamers Paradise and I met. 

It is so amazing  that we both use the words 'Lucid Dream' for a certain subject. 

Ambrosia calls her group 'Lucid Dream Travellers' - something I really would like to learn: lucid dreaming.

And I call my Art 'Lucid Dreams Art Work':-)
It was the name of my gallery or better Bens and my gallery.
Since I am alone it is my gallery or I tried to build it;-)
But I think it gets more and more the name of my kind of Art.
Well, what could be better than putting both 'Lucid Dream - things'  together?

So Ambrosia is building a shop for her things she wants to sell in the future and a gallery around my pictures.
It is called 'Zufall Shop and Art gallery'
I really appreciate that.

And here are some pictures of the development of the gallery that will be above the shop:

So many details to see here:-) Just like on the whole sim.

A view at night:

Another room in the gallery:

A view from inside the future shop at the door:

This is a picture from beneath the gallery - a garden:

Many things at Dreamers Paradise are build by Ambrosia and she is really good in this:-)
 I am looking forward to see the gallery and shop to be ready...
I will post more here about the development:-)
Stay tuned, giggle.
And here is the UFO to the sim:

http://slurl.com/secondlife/Dreamers%20Paradise/110/135/33

Associations

For me there is a strong connection between music and pictures
or whole sceneries - like macchinimas - I have in my mind. 

I try to create these pictures with photos from SL, RL and edit them in photoshop.

My first pic I posted with a link to music on flickr was from:

Stone Sour 'Through Glass'
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P4iuf0YlDSc 

The music inspired me to do this pic.

 For me the pic shows all the illusions and the irrationality SL has in some ways,
 especially in relations there.

 Pink Floyd 'Wish you were here'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EAchKt2xjsw&feature=related

The photo was just taken with no special thoughts and purpose.
The song came into my mind when I looked at it later.

The next pictures are totally different.

They show my visions I have to certain music of Nigel Kennedy

'Hills of saturn'  part 1/2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hcPyHLvzN60 

I do not connect loneliness with this picture but absolutely calmness and peace.
I can imagine that it is really great to fly through the universe and see the beauty of the stars and galaxies.
The photo was taken on my island at wolfberry but the hills, ring and earth
and other things have been added there by me in PS.

The next one is my association to part 2/2 from 'Hills of Saturn'
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HIkQnjodCrg

A bit more dramatic;-)
The planet was created by me including the ring:-)
The photo is from 'Lost World' in SL - a beautiful sim.
The pose is also from LW. You can buy them there and a lot of other poses.
I like to go there and take photos and the sim owner has his own side for LW on flickr and Koinup.

real life - second life

I have started to post some pictures on flickr and koinup where I mix SL and RL.

I really like to do that and I would like to mix a lot more - but my camera is not one of the best.

 But I think it is not that important:-) The fun of doing it should count more.

A bug in my garden:-)

I liked that pic because Mummy duck is looking as if she was watching for some kind of imaginary traffic:-)

So I thought a bit what might fit here and I found something:-)

 A waterlily in my garden and another picture:-)

And now I decided to show a real life photo of myself here and also in my SL-profile

I know I never wanted to do that, grin (more because I do not like photos of myself, giggle)

But I have nothing to hide - not my life and not my real life appearance.

If people do not like that - ok, no need to talk with me:-)

I also can't seperate RL from SL - it is not a game for me. 

Sure we can do a lot of things we would or could never do in RL 

but I do not want to play with the feelings of other people. 

So friendships or relations in SL are no game for me:-)

And I really do not like this hiding in SL anymore. 

Ok at the end everybody has to decide for her/himself. 

There might be reasons not to show the real life. 

I can accept that, but for me it is more honest to show myself. 

And:......... all the illusions are no longer there if we do not only see the avatars:-))

BTW: please excuse my german-english. English is not my native language:-)

Starborn people

I will write a bit about my pictures and what I want to express or what I am happy to be able to express:-)

I believe in or better to say I am convinced from reincarnation. I had a lot of experiences in my life 

to say that it is the truth for ME. 

Another point is - I believe that every soul has a starting point somewhere in universe

(yes! - I am convinced from life on other planets:-) ). 

It might be the earth but it also can be another planet, galaxy, dimension 

or even a parallel universe or another time.

I am NOT talking about the origin or history/evolution of the human body - 

I mean the soul, the essence of a being. 

These souls -  incarnanted in human bodies - are called starborn people or starseeds. 

They might feel very strange and alienated here on earth like I do. 

Life on earth is  - well - difficult to understand for many of them 

and a lot have - like me - a longing to go back to the universe 

whereever they might be at home. 

But on the other hand being here on earth is a possibility to learn.

I know that a lot of people will call us crazy - but to be honest - 

I don't care. It is my truth and nobody has to believe me:-)))

You may asked yourself what this has to do with Second Life. 

Well - that is very simple...for the first time I have found a medium to express 

and show my inner pictures and visions. 

I do that already in a story I am writing on.

But this is so great to 

have the possibility to create pictures like I do:-)))

In my pictures I can fly through universe -  I can do this in RL only in visions and in my dreamstates.

Adventures in another world - part 1

I must tell you about an adventure I had some time ago:-)

A really fantastic, strange adventure.......

On a warm, sunny and very lazy day I wanted to do nothing but relax:-)

 So I made myself comfortable in my flower seat and started to read a book about fairies, 

elves and more:-)) After a while I got so very tired and  it became dark - too dark to read - 

so I decided to lie down a bit on my palmtree-seat.

 I watched the lovely sunset, listened to the music of the ocean-waves 

and the wispering wind in the trees.

 After a while thinking about life, the universe and all the rest I fell asleep...

Suddenly I saw a strange looking woman who seemed to be fighting against some 

kind of bird in a blue turquoise looking world. 

Ok I thought, why not, dreams can be strange....sometimes...or most times...:-))

But then I had a cold and wet feeling at my backside and my legs.

I looked around and found myself sitting in the water in a beautiful environment 

I have never been before:

 

In the corner of my eye I saw the same woman that I had seen fighting before. 

But now I had the feeling she was staring at ME...and she looked very martially with her sword. 

I was a little bit scared to say the least.

Well....you soon will wake up on your island and all is like it was before I talked to myself

trying to convince me from that. I closed my eyes hoping I was right.

But that wet feeling did not go away and when I opened my eyes again 

I was still sitting in the water and that woman was staring at me.

"You do not look as if you belong into my world" she said. How right you are, I thought. 

"So, what are you doing here?" she asked

"Did you come to help us fighting for our world and for peace?"

"I do not have a clue how I came here and I surely do not want to fight. 

I do not even know against whom or what. And who are you and where am I?" I asked back.

"I will tell you but first we have to do a little bit with you - so you can walk around here in my world." 

She took me to a place where I had to stir a slimy looking soup with the same colour as the sky.

At the mean time she was fighting again. 

This time against some creatures that seemed not to grant me that nasty stuff. 

As I already had suspected Kyrla - so she had introduced herself - advised me to drink a certain 

amount of that...drink....slime...soup....yuk!!!

Well, I thought it could not get worse so I drank what she had told me. 

Soon after the first drops were running down my trought I felt dizzy.

I nearly lost consciousness. 

I swear Kyrla was holding her hand against her face and laughed.

I was already in anticipation of some unexpected...bad...strange things 

but what happened then, was more I thought I could bear.

Kyrla took me back to the place before and when I looked into the water I did not recognize myself!! 

I was BLUE!!! Not only my arms and hands as I thought first - NO! 

My whole body was like that and my ears...my ears had grown....

"Now you are looking really good - maybe you have to change your armature a bit." Kyrla said 

"We can do that later. Now we should sit somewhere 

and I will tell you the story of my people and my world."

What she told me and what I experienced I will tell the next time:-)))

more experiments;-)

I tried some more editing in PS and here are the results:

This is for a koinup group and again at Lost World:-) This is the 'original' photo.

and these are the results from playing around in PS:-)

experiments

I love to try a lot of things - also with experimenting in photoshop. I had the opportunity to get a student edition for CS5 and I am really happy of that even if I think I will never be able to use it completely, ROFL.
A nice person I met in SL told me to try to get rid of those steps around the bodies of the avatars. Ok - I did not get rid of that but discovered some new variations of my pictures I want to show here:-)))

 

I used smart blur and a second layer over that with .... I do not know that in english; maybe mode.
The other pictures were made in a similar way.

I think there are interesting effects and I like to play with that and I hope it is not too boring to show the same pic a lot of times:-) I am sure I will try that a lot more;-))) Unfortunately  most of the times I can't remember what I did - my age?? - lol. Maybe I should write that down.......